Ok, I've been away. As you've probably noticed. -.-

But now I have got back my drive to draw and shall be posting more these up comping days. I will also be going over all the deviations you've created while I've been away and commenting as many as I can. What can I say. Life's not easy to any of us. -.-

So, I'll be doing my best to catch up with you... and oh yes. If any of you is interested or/and a fan of fantasy/action/adventure/romance fiction, go check out: [link]

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so here's the bio for my contest entry... X_X (tiiiiredd)


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there, there. X_X just click it to get a BIO... any questions.. ask tomorrow... *hits bed*


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It's December already! @_@ how do I feel like this year just started lol.. oh well. It's good that time goes forward I guess. So. On news... I have my very own computer and very own internet for the first time ever! :3 ha, so happy.. we never had ANY computer anyway.. my times as dependable ofthe school's computers are OVER! yes! XD

Can you believe this! I haven't drawn ANYTHING for atleast... 3 weeks.. I don't believe myself. I guess I haven't just.. had time. Or really.. motivation either.. But now my fingers are starting to ITCH for drawing, and indeed I should. I took part in 's contest which is due by christmas.. several artrades to do and all these flashy images in my head demand to be drawn out lol.

Life's been hectic yeah.. so much.. everything.. -.- all these.. complications.. just like we all have.. :3 see you around folks! I'm gonna go DRAW.

you all!

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I'm not extremely thrilled with this but I claimed a freebie so...

As a deal to 13131(what ever that is...)

First five to claim a spot get a free doodle from me. And then you have to do it yourself and put this up in your journal for five people. (Tho personally I won't hold you to it. So just don't put it in your journal if you don't feel like drawing 5 doodles to some people lol.. I'll close my eyes. Everybody seems so busy these days.)

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There.. lol. What ever you wish.. but bear in mind I'm not very good with animals or such.. Also I'm sorry of lacking with my activity here... I'm just so busy but NOW IT WILL Change! For two reasons!

1. I have FINALLY got a computer!
2. By next monday we get an internet to it!

Hooray! I no longer need to use school computers! *happy*

so there folks.. see you around!

Stole this from

The rules:
* List 11 things you want to say to 11 different people.
* Don't say who they pertain to.
* Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
* Never discuss it again.


1. I hate you. I hate you from the bottom of my heart. If I could, I'd kill you. Slowly. Painfully. Making you feel what you made me feel. Agony. Deeper you can ever imagine. You are the reason why I want to crash humanity.

2. I care for you. I'm afraid to care for you.. It's wrong, I feel. I shouldn't care for you. You will never be for mine to take. never. Why does my heart intent to feel deeper? Why does it whisper, 'he's The One'?

3.I used to hate you. Hate you so much. For ruining my life. But I'm over it. I learned to forgive. Maybe, one day, I'll write you again. But never.. as it used to be. I'll never love you again. You are the one to take away my reasons to ever fall in love again.

4.I feel quilty because of what I've done to you. What I've taken from you. I'd like to close away your existence only cause when ever I see you.. I remember what I've done. There is no way to beg forgiveness. I know you would. But I won't. Never. Forgive myself. It pains to see you so fucking loyal to me. I don't deserve it. Stop it!

5.I don't want to see you anymore. I wish you got once of your own medicine. Once got really hurt, once would realize what it's like. I hate your arrogance. I hate and despise everyting about you. You're disgusting. D.I.S.G.U.S.T.I.N.G.

6. You are special to me. You will always be special to me. Most important person outside of family which doesn't count here. I want to watch after you. Want to see you happy. And I know you will. Be happy. You deserve it. I love you. In my heart. You will always have a VIP place, who comes first.

7. You are not a real friend. You claim to care, but I see you are there only when it suits YOU, not us. You don't scarife your time for your friends. You don't trust in us. What can I say. I wish I had seen it before.

8. I wish I could see inside your head, know what you are thinking, how much do you care for me. Does any of my deeds count to you? Do you notice, or do you just use me? Are you my friend?

9. I wish I would have called you more often, kept in contact. Now it's gone. I can't anymore. I'm sorry. You were always there for me. Well, almost always. Tho, you could have called too, damnit. You were the one to make me feel I had a place when I really didn't. Thank you. I'll never forget you.

10. Thanks for sharing a room with me when I was most down, unsteady, ready to end it all. Even when I couldn't go home, you made me feel welcome to the sanctuary. You looked after me, when they locked me up the that hospital and wouldn't let go. You watched after my back, you are AMAZING! Keep your head up, it's worth it. It is. Believe me.

11. You are my idol. When I grow up, I want to teach like you do. Show students their true potential, what they can do. I want to make them enjoy it like you make me like it. Even tho I HATE your subject, I love your lessons. I also want to care like you do. Care for real. Not just close my eyes. You've done so much for me. I think you look like Dustin Hoffman. I love you. In a funny way you can love your teacher for being your teacher. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you.

I feel unbelievable serenity right now. *yawn* Good. good. it's good. I'll never say these things aloud, never tell for who they were to.
And that is how it is supposed to be. Maybe... If those people read this, theid recognise temselves. I dunno.